Departed at 4AM. And our plan was to watch sunrise together up at the top of the mountain where we could see the whole town of SF.

But somehow Kum, Mandy and I fell asleep in the car unknowingly at around 5AM and when we opened our eyes, the sun was already high up in the sky. -_-

And the reason why I woke up was because the weather was crazily cold and my bladder was about to burst.

In the end, we were trapped in the car, with our bodies aching from the uncomfortable sleeping position and we were shivering in the cold like some penguins without fur.

What an experience!

Left Twin Peaks hunting for toilet and had Dim Sum for breakfast.

The food served was below our expectations.

The worst thing was that the waiters could barely understand Mandarin and were blabbering away in Cantonese. Like I understand?! -_-" So there was so much misunderstanding with the menu and they ended up looking pissed off. HAHA. Spent $17 each for breakfast, crazyyy!

And now I'm supposed to be on my bed, tucked under the blanket compensating for my sleeping time. I think this week had been really crazy. My sleeping hours are officially screwed. Mon-Thu sleeping at 4.30am (and waking up at 7.30am).. and only around 1.5 hours of sleep in the car last night. I'm turning into a nocturnal freak. Ah.

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Downhearted. Frustrated. Hopeless. Disappointed.

I feel so messed up.

Yeah maybe you didn't mean what you said.

Those words came pelting down to me like hailstones, like a strike of lightning that awakened me; Is that what you really feel.
Traumatized. Lost. Scared.
It's like the same scene repeating itself again, the only difference is that it is staged by different people now. Another you, and a different him.

Can't we rewind back to those moments when there was nothing to fear or worry about.
Or maybe turn back to the time when we should never have crossed each other's paths.

I hate being close to people and then losing them a moment after.


WHY DOES EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU HAVE TO BE SO HARD?

I get this feeling that things are going to change. And I can't do anything to stop it from happening.

A total reversal of emotional states.
I'm going to lose you like how it had happened before.

4:49 AM Tjung!